"I use Push – with my hands to help – and then without any effort, my NS, brainstates, energy, emotions – all levels really become sorted, organize themselves into a „there“ and „here“, into a „other“ and „self“ – then follows TRUST ! in my somatic, emotional, mental and spiritual/energetic experience and perception!!

All the many years of prior therapies, meditation, BMC, different approaches are coming together in this push practice for me – supported and initiated by our course here – and specifically I believe by becoming aware somatically of cloudy, foggy , dissociated and many other existential somatic states in combination with BRAIN states as well as having a CONTEXT and VOCABULARY like for example “need shock“ or “spatial shock“ and so on
 
Thank you
 
For bringing all of this together, for your personal process that made this possible and for making it available"

Roya  

"Annie,
That was profound! [My son] had an anticipated sports activity planned after our session but instead, as soon as our call ended, he said to me, "I want to try it. Right now. I want to take Blue Bear under the bed." Ignoring that we were totally going to be late, I told him ok, let's do it.
The only bed we have with a space he can slide under is ours so we went into my room. He took his small blue bear that represented Baby Brennen and began to slide under. When the bottom side rail touched his back he froze, "I can't. No, I can't do it." He slid back out fast and holding his bear to his chest, burst into sobs. I was already sitting on the ground, so I wrapped my arms around him and held him, putting pressure on his upper arm/shoulders like you suggested.
He said, "No, I want to try again." Dad slightly lifted the bed so he could use his arms to slide on his belly, with Baby Brennen bear under the bed.

     Once he had made it under the bed (btw, the room was pretty well lit, even under the bed) he curled into the fetal position. He then told baby Brennen, "We're stuck but we are ok." Then he pretended to remove the cord from his neck. I said, "Good, now when you're ready, call out for help."
"Mommy, help me out." At that point Dad slowly lifted the bed an extra 2 inches off the bed to give him just barely enough room to slide out. He slithered his way to the edge and using his feet to push and his arms, began to emerge.  Since you talked about the expanding, I noticed his arms were tucked, even though he had cleared the side rail at that point so I told him, "Stretch out your arms forward and feel how strong they are to pull you forward and feel your strong legs.  I was right next to him and then scooped him up into my arms and lap where he curled in. My husband came to the floor and we both embraced Brennen together until he felt his body relax after a couple minutes and gently pull away.  Dad asked, "How was that? How do you feel?" 
"I feel good. Okay....so. Huh." He smiled and looked tired, happy and a little confused, like what the heck-that was weird but cool.
Thank you again so much."

"Early on I was so ashamed of being seen that I would shake and go into a laughter reaction that wasn't really laughter. I was scared that talking to me would damage you. That I was too much to survive. You never flinched. You labeled and narrated what was happening in me that no one could stay present with with total detachment. Once, I started falling apart at the end. But you saw this and you just...hung up on me. This is when you became my hero. I knew then that you were strong enough to protect yourself from me and not die by hanging up, almost like you didn't even care at all. The next week, you went on as if it didn't impact you at all, and as if nothing had happened, no follow up or review, nothing. But it didn't matter to me, because I was so relieved you weren't dead. You told me you didn't think I had what it takes to heal. You said it again over and over and every time it reminded me how far I still had to go and how honest you were willing to be when no one else would. All I ever needed was someone who wouldn't be destroyed by me. This is why I've been able to go to places with you I've never gone with anyone else."